I hate my life..

I hate my life..

03.20.04 (11:40 am)   [edit]
Today was our track meet against Deleon, and Brown.. And I think I did terrible!!! I remember during our first meet all the middle schools were there and I got fourth overall for the 100 meter dash and now what? Look what happened!! My dad watched me race and he said that in the four hundred I was doing okay until that Deleon girl passed me!! There was a HUGE gap between us since I sprinted for the four hundred and I got tired at the second curve so I slowed down.. I was gonna be in first place but I got tired at the second curve since I sprinted at the start of the race... I blame my menstrual period because I felt heavy during my races.. On our very first meet with all the schools, my period didn't start for this month.... And I blame it on that!!! I hate it!!! My shins are aching!! My dad said I needed more practice to maintain my speed on long distances and so he told me to practice harder.. He's gonna make me practice on weekends too!! :( .. Come to think of it, I've noticed I've got no talent... I"m a talentless fool ..I wouldn't count poetry and intelligence as a talent... Kat and Jill can dance and I can't.. Jill can sing and I can't .. I don't have any good characteristics either.. God has given me every bad thing that anyone can imagine... Everyday, as the days go by, I discover more things about me--how talentless and how ugly I am... I'm such a negative person.. I always put myself down... That is the reason why I hate my life.. Some people have it all.. They've got talent and intelligence and beauty.. What do I have? Every bad thing you can imagine, I guess............ :(